Zarley

Zarley, Zar-Zar, Zarlybinkines, Bugges

To Zarley:
Hey Zar its Dad, I wanted to tell you that I love you. I love you with all my heart. You are your own person and I can’t wait to see what you grow up into. From the moment I saw you in moms belly at the south town mall I know I was in love. I have my weak moments in life like everyone does. But you have always been there for me to pull me off the edge. You and your sister and your brothers. Are you the best behaved little girl? No certainly not but I would not have you any other way. And a girl could be as fun and exciting and full of laughs and be a good girl. I know times are easy right now. I know whose fault that is. But that doesn’t change who you are to me and what you mean to me. When I spend time with you, you make me the happiest father in the world. I know school is tough I know some of the challenges you face in your life because I have face the same challenges. I think that’s why we bond. I pray you don’t grow up to face the challenges I face these days. But if by chance you do I hope you have someone to pull you out of the darkness the way you always seems to do for me. If not for a single hello on the phone or a kiss from you who knows where I would be. I look at your smile and it could brighten up the dark side of the moon. There are days I find myself on that dark side of the moon and it’s your light that shines, and shows me the path back to life. I know that's a lot of responsibility for such a little girl. But I want you to know that you mean more to me then the world itself. It breaks my heart to hear when you have sad days or bad days. I want you to know that I have them too. I have the days where you just don't want to get out of bed and face the world. But there is this little girl out there that sunshine’s and gets me to face life. Because I know that I could not face life without you. So on your Birthday I don't mean to make this about me. But I want you to understand how important you are to me. How I could not live without you. You will never have an idea how true those words are. Zarley I love you. Below is a song that reminds me of you. You are my answer, I hope when you grow up I will be your answer. I will always be here for you. Like my parents in your darkest days and lowest moments there will always be a hand there to pull you out. Sometimes you just need to look up instead of down. I miss you every second of every day. I miss seeing what outfit you will decide fits your mood or what shoes might work. I love the gamble of if it’s going to be a good day or a bad day. You can be so sweet to your brothers. I loved how you promised to share perfume with your sister because you knew she wanted it. Some day you’re going to grow up and wonder who is there for you. You should know I will always be there for you.

I have 8 birthday wishes for you

1. 1. I know your little heart can dream and I wish all your dreams come true. I promise to do everything in my power to make them happen.

2. 2. I know you don’t like your glasses but I hope one day you will see yourself for how cute you are in them

3. 3. You are as special as your name is. There is no other Zarley out there.

4. 4. I hope some day you get all the American girl dolls your heart desires

5. 5. I wish I could bring you a Mnt Dew every morning. But a responsible parent doesn’t do that. Doesn’t mean I don’t want too.

6. 6. I hope I get to take you to England some time so you can see where your Dad came from

7. 7. I hope when you grow up you have a child that means as much to you as you do to me.

8. I hope that you find happiness we try to find each day.

Love Always,
Dad

Answer

By Sarah McLachlan

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind

Link to Song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=f6pQcpFnXOI