Catching up

It's been forever. I have tried to blog a few times but for whatever reason my computer at home doesn't want to cooperate. I have pictures I wanted to post but can't. Maybe if I ever figure out what the problem is I will do a picture only post. A lot has happened in our lives. We had a very successful baseball/T-ball season. Both boys played and they couldn't have been cuter. Xman was the White Sox and Owen was the Diamond Backs. Owen Played coach pitch and did really well. He only had to use the tee. a couple of times this year. He is really starting to get the game and know to throw to first to get the guy out. It is so fun to see him understanding and growing. He had some visitors at some games, not everyone was able to find the time to come out and see him. We do what we can right. Xav did really well especially for being one of the youngest on his team. He had one game where he had Mike pitch to him and he got a hit. NO tee for him. At one point he didn't want to play in his games because he wanted to play "real baseball" with out the tee. I guess he gets it to. Xavier also learned to ride his bike with out training wheels. He is so cute on his little 2 wheeler I love it. It also makes me so sad, he is my baby and not wanting to be left behind at all he is doing things so fast. He hadn't even turned 4 and was riding his 2 wheeler. He learned the youngest out of all my kids. We had our dance competition season which I really do love. I love to go and watch I always have a good time. I love solo night to. Winter did really well, she didn't win every time but she has grown as a dancer and she always makes me smile when she dances. I just think she dances so pretty. Zar moved up 3 levels in reading over the school year she is doing really well. We have our struggles that's for sure. I just look at her beautiful face and I don't understand why she has to struggle so much. We have really been having a time of it lately. What I hate most of all is how some people just don't get it. They just think your kid is spoiled or lazy or whatever they don't seem to understand she really has some things hindering her behaviors. And then others just want to brush everything under the carpet and pretend she is your everyday average child who isn't going through anything. That with a little love all we be well. Neither are the case. It makes my blood boil. We will be on a different track this year for school C track which means my kids only get a 3 week summer. Owen is going to be in the dual Emerson class so that is the reason for the change and amazing opportunity for him. But a 3 week summer totally sucks. And I work all the time now makes me feel guilty my kids don't get a fun summer. My poor kids are wondering what happened to the days mom was around to do things with us. On the plus side Mike doesn't work as many hours so when I am at work he has been taking the kids and taking them swimming a lot. Owens swimming has gotten so good. He is jumping off the diving boards now. My parents finished a room in my basement for Winter, I couldn't thank them enough. I am hoping this will help with some of the issues we've been having. Now that Zar and Winter will have there own space. I think they both really need it. hopefully I can figure out a way to get some pictures on. I have 3 weeks off from my school job which is nice since I have been working like 50 hours a week lately. I feel so behind on everything in my life. My house and laundry my yard. I know its normal for a lot of people to have this life but its not for me. And dealing with everything alone has been hard. You never realize the things you have until they are gone. Even if its just that emotional support of a spouse. Someone to complain about the long days to. I have to find day care of Xavier this year which is tearing my heart out. This to I know many people have to do all the time. I have always been able to work when Mike could be with the kids or had a schedule where I could have family help me. I have never sent any of my kids to a stranger. It is so hard. I don't even know how to find someone I will like or that Xman will be comfortable with. I should thank my sisters for all the babysitting they did for me this last year as my life changed and I did my best to pick myself up and make the best of the situation. I truly couldn't have made it through this year with out them. I also couldn't have done it with out the help of Kerry's mother in law Robie who watch Xavier and Owen on more than one occasion at the last minute when I was in a bind. I did Ragnar this year and I have to say it was the most fun I have had in a very long time. Thanks Nat for letting me be on your team. Can't wait to do it again. I really surprised myself with how well I did. That to was a nice feeling. I have another challenge I am training for that I hope will be rewarding as well. Well that's the last few months in a nutshell I will post some pictures as soon as I can.